in what ethereal dances...by what eternal streams?

my fetch and i

---

something i made at 3 am from the content of my dreams...


I dream of wayward gulls and all landless lovers, rare moments of winter sun, peace, privacy, for everyone...

William Francis Claire


where are the things i was promised? when they told me i could do anything, when they said that in the future things would be different...i have had to lessen my dreams until they are a tiny, trembling vapor of hope clutched in one defiant hand because of them..they who caused me to dream so high! and now my soul is lost, eternally lost, left floating and crying sadly out above the world, and i can’t get it back, it’s gone, it’s forever lost in the faraway reaches where i cannot follow because i sent it off with bright hopes of joining it someday..and i am left despondent below, left to wander about the earth without that part of me because it dwells in far happier lands where it rains and shines and loves and hopes and dances with butterflies, but i’ll never get it back. i’m left soulless, dreamless, because they consumed me and left me and i cannot follow where they lead. this is not the future. this is just the interruption of the past...




Ships at a distance have every man’s wish on board. For some they come in with the tide. For others they sail forever on the horizon, never out of sight, never landing until the Watcher turns his eyes away in resignation, his dreams mocked to death by Time. That is the life of men.

Zora Neale Hurston

blarghs.

my schedule is so hectic for this semester. i will probably die. i don't use this blog much since i usually just post on myspace so only my friends can read it, but i like everyone to know that i am indeed alive and i do check this blog and post things that i find to be of general interest (eg, the lyrics i post that i can't find anywhere else on the net.)

no worries.

"Pretty Girls" lyrics by Watermark

Watermark

"Pretty Girls"

I'm getting tired of pretty girls
silly, wild, big city girls
who can spend two hours putting hair in curls
but don't got a minute for th rest of the world
i'm gettin tired of those pretty girls

give me a girl who's nice and plain
who loves the Lord, and ain't so vain
she can laugh at the trouble and smile at the pain
sing in the shower and dance in the rain
look pretty in pearls but still prefer a daisy chain

i want a girl whose lips are drippin with scripture
who loves me best when i'm humble upon my knees
i want a girl that's gonna love the way
i love her like a sister
i want a girl that's gonna always love another man
over me


a woman can be so many things
she can be the love of your life
or a one night fling
she can be your hand to hold or just a diamond ring
a Juliet or just a drama queen
setting the stage for the players but never
the King

give me a woman who's warm and kind
who thinks with her heart and speaks her mind
who keeps her hands busy on a work divine
who keeps her arms open with a love gone blind
but a love like that
what mortal man can find?

i want a girl who's racing to the face of her Maker
she's full tilt runnin to wherever the Spirit leads
i want a girl who's gonna praise my Jesus everywhere i take her
i want a girl who's gonna always love another man
over me

just give me second place
that's where i want to be

cause if you move me up one space
something's gone wrong in your list of priorities


i want a girl whose lips are drippin with scripture
who loves me best when i'm humble upon my knees
i want a girl to make me feel like singing every time i'm with her
i want a girl that's gonna always love another man


i want a girl who's racing to the face of her Maker
she's full tilt runnin to wherever the Spirit leads
she leans heavy on the arms of a lover that never will forsake her
i want a girl who's gonna always love another man
over me

Reasons and Thoughts on Why I Hate Jazz

Now before you get your panties in a knot--No, I am not a jazz expert. Yes, I am sure that *somewhere* there is a jazz song I would probably enjoy. No, I haven't heard it yet. No, don't send me more jazz music. Yes, I am a Music Industry major. No, that doesn't mean I should automatically love jazz.

#1. The top reason I hate jazz is because of Jazz Enthusiasts, or as I like to call them, stuck-up morons.
"What? You don't like jazz? *insert long-winded argument in favor of jazz and why I am not cultured here* Don't you know that *so and so* was the best musician who ever lived?"

No, they weren't. Just because I don't like jazz does not mean you are somehow more sophisticated than I am. Sorry. Jazz fans are a step below opera fans in that matter. At least opera has some sort of plot you can follow along to ease the boredom and ignore the ringing pain in your ears.

#2. I need structure. Sorry, it's how I've always been. I like music that I can follow, that I can see is taking me in a direction, not just wildly leading me everywhere. Music that jumps around and mumbles makes me irate.

#3. Lyrics! I know there are a lot of jazz songs with lyrics. But part of the the reason they are jazzy is because they can be played a thousand times and never sound the same. Some people might like that. I hate it. I like to know what I am listening to. I like to sing along! I like to get involved. I also like to understand the singer.
mumble mumble mumble snake mumble. And the instrumental ones put me into a coma.
no thanks.

#4. But jazz is the only true AMERICAN form of music!! You're not patriotic!

shut up. Do all people from the Netherlands enjoy death metal?


#5. Music is the universal language, people say. Or love, or smiling..whatever. Anyway, it's a form of speech, right? As in, right to free speech? So don't start yelling at me for my opinion. This actually goes back to #1 and Jazz Enthusiasts. (I have to keep typing that so I can remind myself to cool down and not call them snobby arse-holes.) This deserves multiple points just because other music fans are cool about music. They say "Oh, you don't like *so and so*? Well that's too bad. Have you heard this *really good album in their opinion* yet? Oh? You should check it out."
See? That wasn't so bad. Easy, clean, and I now know what to look for should I ever want to check out that music.

#6. I've seen the Mighty Boosh. I know what the Spirit of Jazz looks like, he's evil and I don't have any spare vacuums handy. He is NOT crawling up in this.

#7. I feel that people who are interested in music feel like they are forced to admit they like jazz even if they don't. That's oppression!! Stop keeping us jazz-haters down!

#8. I did a very professional poll by hastily IMing some friends who happened to be online at the time and the overwhelming response was "NO BECAUSE IT SUCKS."

Actually, they all gave intelligent responses and one person even said they liked it, but therefore they don't count and I was too lazy to write the other stuff down.

#9. I like my music to be varied. There is way too much brass in jazz, not enough strings, not enough of anything else for that matter. I'm not really a fan of brass in general, I love reed instruments and percussion and strings more....I don't know, it reminds me of when I went to an art museum and I saw a piece of graph paper, blown up and laminated on the wall. Or a just a panel of red. Seriously. Then I have people saying "Well Art is all around us, how do you define art, blah blah". I don't care. Art should take talent and thought and a giant piece of graph paper is not Art in my opinion, sorry. Yes, I see beauty and art in simple, everyday things. Not saying that the only way to be an artist is to be Michelangelo. But still. Art takes work. The work is what you see reflected in the piece--care, devotion, time of the person who made it. How much work did it take to stick the graph paper on the wall? Same with jazz. I'll just improvise some tune, doesn't have to be the same next time.

#10. I hate waiting rooms. Waiting rooms that play jazz music incessantly.



Now, I understand there are different types of jazz. From what I've heard, they all bore me. Thinking about it, I actually like the word "jazz" quite a bit. Sort of edgy and smooth. Much like jazz isn't.

random stuff

INTJ - "Mastermind". Introverted intellectual with a preference for finding certainty. A builder of systems and the applier of theoretical models. 2.1% of total population.

Take Free Jung Personality Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

Main type	Variant

Take Free Enneagram Personality Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

Summer Song Summer -- Radiogram Lyics

my idea of the perfect day
would be to lie in bed and just melt away
the sun through my window casts a hazy ray
it turns reflections into memories

another summer song summer
full of one-hit number ones
current on the charts
so that i can sing along
of the seasonal behavior
yeah the kids come on too strong
another summer gone summer
but it's someone else's song

it's been so long since we sang "so long"
i didn't know it'd be our one-hit song
we played it every hour all summer long
until the needle broke under your thumb

another summer gone summer
full of one-hit number ones
current on the charts
still i try to sing along
of the seasonal behavior
everyone comes on too strong
another summer song summer
but it's someone else's song

my idea of the perfect day
would be to lie in bed and just melt away
another summer song summer
full of one-hit number ones
current on the charts
everybody sing along
of the seasonal behavior
i've been coming on too strong
another summer gone summer
but it's someone else's song

the radio is playing nothing else (someone else's song)
another anthem for today's lost youth (someone else's song)
i used to wonder what became of you (someone else's song)
you changed your mind before they changed our tune

Nashvegas

well, i've made it through my first week and a half here in nashville. work is killer but the schedule and pay are both good so that's good.

i really need to go through my iTunes. i have over 9,000 songs and a lot of them i don't really listen to, and they just annoy me when they come on. lol. i hate not having them though.

bika comes here tomorrow, so that's cool. maybe we'll go do something nashvillian. because i have just been working and sleeping. i slept 16 hours last night. crazy, but i was wiped.

well, it's been real.